Im sorry if u r reading this....
U can ignore me becoz this post would be an emo and boring post...
jz skip or close and go to another blogger instead~

IM SAD AND UPSET
at first, i thought i wouldn't care about others' thoughts towards me..
but i hv proved that i was totally wrong..
I DO CARE!
***Sin Chan...i understand what u were trying to tell me...
i really do..i understand....i noe u wanted to mk me feel better..
i appreciate it...
but the thing is...
we say it easily but when u try to do it...it's not as easy as what we say..

i tried my best to focus myself on chemistry since i hvn't started any chap yet...
but i really can't concentrate as the bad thing happened keep idling in my brain.......
FANSHUSSS...i really appreciate u all..
thnx for being so caring and understanding.....
im gonna MISS u all badly n crazily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE YOU GUYS!

Tears out.....heart broken...
i went to the lake with my friend jz now...
i crapped a lot and a lot...
but ended up with tears on my face at home...
i hv no idea at all that the things i would hv probably done.....
IM REALLY SORRY IF I HV HURT YOU!

but u, how could u treat me lidat?
i thought we were friends after all........
i forgave...i did......
but now BOOM! the bad feelings come back again...
i don't think i can forget everything and still being friendly to u....
im nt that kind of 2 face ppl.....
i tried to be 2 face ppl but i jz couldn't do it...
i noe being 2 faces is not wrong at all becoz it's abt trust..i noe...
but it's a sin for me!
please don't make false become right!
U noe tat's not true! u noe it!
don't u feel guilty when u accuse ppl?
don't u believe in karma???

2 more months to go...what should i do?
what should i do to please everyone...
im always 38 and crapping nonsense...itz becoz i want my friends to be happy..
i don't tend to hurt anybody....
IM REALLY SORRY AND SORRY AND SORRY if i hv made u upset..

PLEASE...
don't gv me a fake smile...
i can't afford it....
it really hurts!
sry ar fanshuss..
i noe im so stubborn that i keep this in my heart...
i should let it go rite?but i really cannot do it....
i care about friends a lot...
FRIEND IS A BIG WORD IN MY WORLD!
i can't afford to lose friend...except those i really cannot forgive...

if u dislike my 38 ness...
if u r uncomfortable with my lame-ness...
FINE...i can stop being crazy and shut my mouth shut!
FINE....................

IM SO BLUE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

*p/s i appreciate those who being honest to me.....lucky to hv friends lidat.....again.................i really love my fanshuss..not becoz u r smart or stupid.....but i really appreciate this friendship!!!!!!
YOU HAVE MY WORD!!!if not...i'll become smash potato one day...hee....can't stop being lame~