Friendship

i might no longer understand.....perhaps im confused?

if love makes u tired, then don't love
if hatred makes u happy, then please hate me

i would hate u to think i didn't care u

if u wish to see my fake smile, i can absolutely do that
no more cares no more hard feelings
no more tears for me too

hv u ever being ignored by ur loved one?
it's not easy at all u noe...
it's hurt and sad!
when someone u love so much takes of everyone's pictures excluding u..haha...
close ur eyes, imagine and feel that!
and wat if u still have to pretend u don't care at all and smile^^ after all?

if i dun care u as my buddy why would i care wat u have done
i can take that easily if i don't appreciate u

u can be a good friend, good listener
u have a very kind and sweet heart
u always be there when ur friends need u
but u don't look on ppl's view
maybe u have tried ur best to think for ppl, but that's not enough....

if u are my friend, u'd know FRIEND is a BIG WORD for me in my life...
i can't bear to lose any of my loved one..unless u abandon me at first....
u can say or blog whatever u want......
as long as it eases u....go ahead.......
i prefer being scolded than being ignored..
maybe blogging is not a good option for me to confront u.
I might lose u or i might not after this.
But i don't have other choices and i still have to risk it..

lastly, I HEART U...
it's ur decision...im ur friend or not...

In the moment,
i hope my mind can be like
the placid waters of the lake
peacefully...