Out of sudden, i have so much to tell.
Out of sudden, i realize that internet means so much to me.
Out of sudden, i find out that i am so in blue in this late night yet i am exhausted.

I have rushed for 2 jobs in a day. Today is the 4th month but it is not a good start for 5th. Temper lost and it scared me and worried me at the same time which proceed to a further and deeper thought after. I am so sensitive so what? Either u hate me or u accept me. Of course I do know that my sensitivity is sometimes a bit over but that proves that i care. Don't ever throw ur temper on me which i don't think that i deserve it. I didn't dare to say this out but i actually had my own difficulties as i need to take care of so much of matters at the same time with the lowest risk. It was a real big challenge to me but obviously i failed in this complicated mission. I couldn't cope things when it comes to plural which involves so many participation. I was forced to face 4 party and at the end, i had to sacrifice my happy moment and what i got at the end was a so 'PLEASE' present. What i wish was so simple, I don't want to trouble any of them. Sometimes people just don't understand we need to sacrifice before we proceed to success. That's how the life runs. Unless u never want to walk to the end of our life together. I was mad because i knew that wouldn't ease the situation and also the tension atmosphere. Somehow i feel happy that at least i can have the chance to enable myself being on both site. To think in different perspective. Why don't i understand it is not ur fault and neither mine. I didn't want it to happen but please don't simply throw ur tantrum on me even if u don't speak it out but i can feel the anger inside u. However, it's very sarcastic if i say this is a very good chance for me to learn how to deal with the pressure from so much of participation within one second. Maybe i need a GOD to be my guide to be with me.

Afterall, I am always confused. You can make me crazily in love with you but also knock on me right after that! I was seriously touched with what it had happened on Sunday and it was such a big sacrifice to u which i sincerely appreciate that. This is what people always say that You make me fly and You throw me down which i feel so oppressed and breathless.

I don't like telling people as they couldn't really understand the situation so i prefer telling myself through blogging.
Thanks my dearie blog.