short note for 09/04
·I did my practical test today. Hooray! Ester's made! Fruity smell~~~ Today was safe! Ester din spilt into my eyes anymur. HAHa..
-thnx to my lab partner- YEE HON.....we tried our best!
·I did my issue analysis. I din noe wat d hell i kept 'errhhh~~eeee~~~ermm~~~~' for most of d time. Dr Santha asked a lot of hard Q, nt like before. Bt sumhow, she was quite gud enough to lead me. Eventually i ruined it thou! Pathetic.@@

Class till 4pm wth only one break....bt interesting was, Ms Yeap showed her husband n also herself's photos during visiting to Japan. Stress release a bit once saw d food inside pictures. ^^

别忘了微笑-Don't forget to smile

淡淡微笑，
淡化了我心中的愤怒，

小退一步，
让我顿然放松了紧绷的面孔，

那一刻才发现，
我只有盲目的匆忙，
不断的埋怨，
忘记了如何微笑，
忘记了如何退后，
忘记了如何静心···

谢谢你，叔叔！

I walked home from KTM as i always do, i was SO BLUE! Today's tiring.....NO...yesterday was tiring.....tomorrow will be tiring..everyday every moment make me SICK!

Thousand n million of problems i have in my mind..

As usual, i need 15 min to walk home in 10m/s n i did it today too..wat is in my mind is fast fast reach home...tat will always push me to d max speed i can walk which actually can consider as a small run. I sweat like hell bt d problems still running in my head. I grimaced. I walked like anyone who ever approach me would got killed. Somehow, there was a lorry in front of d furniture shop. He was d lorry driver, he was waiting to turn out to d road. I didn't want to delay my time to get home n i planned to go through quickly. He was so kind. He reversed his lorry so tat i could walk through. At d moment i realized i looked at him n wat i could see from his face was d kind look wth a smile. I noded my head n he did tat to me. Immediately, i was so relieved! Sort of phasing in chinese, 'let go big stone' from my heart. Smiley appearing in front of my eyes gradually. Yea....how could i forget d way to smile? Step backward..everything will be fine. Let it go let it be wat it shud be. Follow d river's flow~

Trying my best to get myself out from there....
while LIFE GOES ON!

wat a splendid day i hv got!!!wao~~~
no ballet n no piano today..n slept from 8pm yest until 9am today..OMG! im KING OF HEAVY SLEEPER!(by d way, im also BREAD OF KING!*purposely inverse them XP) n wao shud be proud of tat!wahahahas...hmmm...it's basically d consequences for being too tired n exhausted before..lotz of things i must be able to follow up to. apart from d heavy workloads...also well-communication among ppl i hv got to maintain to ensure d so-called 'friends relation' to get along for d rest of 6 months. sudd....i really MISS my 2nd schoolmates! wuu~~~~ it's kinda hard for me to accept new ppl wth their extraordinary characteristic. sumtimes, to mk things go easier, mk life easier, u jz need to pretend u r OK wth watever no matter hw bad ppl threats u. Furthermore, u needa to be blind n becuming stupid lik 'o ya?hmmm...ok lar then..i'll tk it.."!WATSOEVER! d only way i can do is...to swallow it as d phase written above keep repeating n idling deep in my heart!忍耐忍耐(seeking for d peaceful as it's stated in Buddism)bt it's jz so complicated which gradually causing my concept to bcum affected..is it my problem for nt exposing to new thingy?instead of stubbornly owning my own perception?@@ however, since im da jie jie, i think it's a da jie jie's role rite? to be tolerant n forgiveful(gt such word? sry ar...my eng is bad =P)..sumhow, i always get jealous on banana..she got nice, kind n friendly ppl wth her, who is willing to really b her friends n hv d same frequency.in a moment,im wondering do i hv a friend?wat's confusing me...is tat...wat r friends meant for?i feel like we r all using each other mutually oni.i lost d true feeling...bt anyway, this is one of d interesting part of my life, this is jz d beginning part of my adventures to get started. we learn new things every second every minute every hours every days...bla bla bla... STOP EMO-ING!!!! lifes..oh no..i think i hv to correct it to be life..without 's' as we oni own 1 single life to go on..i know..we can't expect every human being has d same frequency...as if it really does, no WAR will be ther then...haha..at least, i learn to be tough n be gud to ppl since i really HATE ppl threating me badly! everyday im telling myself, think easily n mk life goes sweeter.. bt i couldn't! i dunno y~~maybe im simply too stubborn? hmmm..probably..n mayb im tiring of 看人脸色??haha.. well, REALITY....it's d only ever word from all over d dictionaries tat i can conclude from.. i rather to live in imaginary world instead of being in reality..bt sumhow i need to convince myself so i can survive in tis sucks awful world. it's a MUST! i noe...ppl....tease me if u want..im absolutely conscious tat im so immature here...i dun care!jz let me nag for a while..n i'll b better later..promise! ^^ TQ !

see! again! i tried my best to start wth a mur entertain post bt unfortunately ended up wth my complaints..sry to those who is reading..sry...well i always seek for d true path n better way for me to solve my problems n obstacles i hv been facing to..haha..sumtimes it seems lik im self-supporting n self-convincing here..paiseh ar! XD im willing to share my knowledge n opinions so if u dun mind u can read d posts here..as long as u dun think they r too childish n stupid..haha..can remind me abt tat too anyway!hehe..

IM SELF-DEVELOPING TO GET BETTER! *i hv realized tat im starting to hv abnormal character..T.T i bcum mur in self-protecting, well easier to describe is self-fishness.. IM TURING INTO AN EVIL!!!i got to get rid of it!! this is wat i promise to a future me....god bless....**wink wink